This one was a confusing mix between girls I knew in ACJC, and girls I knew in MGS. I only remember the bit where we were sitting in a sortof class, near the top of a lecture theatre, and the lecture hadn't started yet... and for some reason one or two of the girls were gesturing as if they were mockingly mimicking sign language and I suddenly got angry and yelled out, "Stop making fun of their sign language!" They stopped, and looked at me in a shocked and slightly "Huh?" way... But I remember being so angry I didn't care. Then as the class started to dissipate to various other venues, I remember walking down the centre aisle and this girl came up to me and asked if I was okay, and said she totally agreed with me... I was rather surprised because I never expected it of this particular girl before, since my (real-life) experience with her seems to be that she disdains me more than anything else. Anyway, as I was walking along to somewhere else, still seething but somewhat ashamed of my outburst now, another girl came up to me and said she agreed with what I said too, and asked if I remembered what she told me about she and her sister... Somehow I appeared to remember that she'd told me before she and her sister were hearing-impaired / used sign language (even though in real life both she and the girl whom I thought in the dream was her sister had perfect hearing -- and in real life the girl wasn't even her sister but her best friend!) so I said yes... and she started telling me her point of view and suddenly I was awoken by my alarm clock.
Sigh. School and dreams. Perhaps unconsciously, I'm holding onto my memories of school. Yet consciously, I know that I can no longer exist peacefully in a state of unusefulness to society...
And now the question is, how can I be useful to society?
(Undoubtedly at this point a good few of my lecturers will pop up and ask "What do you mean by 'society'?" :P)
This imagination of mine. It must either be tamed or put to daily use, so that my nights are not plagued by it. >.<
Dear Lord, please grant that "the Lion sleeps tonight..."
Monday, April 23, 2007
Sunday, April 22, 2007
'Nother Dream
Man, even getting dreams during naps now. Persistent dreams :S
This one again involved VCF and church people... guess you know who I miss huh? :P Well it started out with VCF folk saying they were gonna sleep overnight at the library or something, and we were in this cramped glass-enclosed room and i remember looking around and thinking "Eh, not much place to sleep eh" especially since there were some weird contraptions taking up room. I sat down at the least-threatening contraption and realised my crush was there and we started chatting and were giggling away behind the cover of the contraption. (Oops *blush* :P) Then suddenly I got paranoid that we were giggling and chatting too loud and peeped over the top of the contraption and the room had become a chalet room with a church youth lying on the floor asleep. (Later I realised there was another girl behind us, the sister of the girl whom I saw lying on the floor, but I hadn't known she was there at that point in the scene and I wasn't sure whether she had heard us either.) I sortof found myself sitting next to her and then suddenly the room was filled with more church youths and I was asking them if they were staying and the whole scene got quite chaotic for awhile. And then I was sent on some errand and there were paths of red brick lined by green bushes and there were puddles on the road and I was walking barefooted and I HONESTLY don't remember what it was all about. :P
Dreams aside, I really don't seem to be getting anymore rested despite sleeping so much. And I end up not studying as much as I wanted to... Gahhh. I want my A's!!! >.<
Terrified of 1st exam tomorrow and Human Rights paper on Wednesday. Not that I'm terribly prepared for the rest but at least they're less anxiety-inducing. Am understandably stressed but also feel rather down. Sigh. Today's QT, though, reminded me that when we feel inadequate and overwhelmed, God is near. Thank You, God :')
Be near me, Lord Jesus
I ask Thee to stay
Close by me forever
And love me, I pray
Bless all the dear children
In Thy tender care
And take us to Heaven
To live with Thee there
This one again involved VCF and church people... guess you know who I miss huh? :P Well it started out with VCF folk saying they were gonna sleep overnight at the library or something, and we were in this cramped glass-enclosed room and i remember looking around and thinking "Eh, not much place to sleep eh" especially since there were some weird contraptions taking up room. I sat down at the least-threatening contraption and realised my crush was there and we started chatting and were giggling away behind the cover of the contraption. (Oops *blush* :P) Then suddenly I got paranoid that we were giggling and chatting too loud and peeped over the top of the contraption and the room had become a chalet room with a church youth lying on the floor asleep. (Later I realised there was another girl behind us, the sister of the girl whom I saw lying on the floor, but I hadn't known she was there at that point in the scene and I wasn't sure whether she had heard us either.) I sortof found myself sitting next to her and then suddenly the room was filled with more church youths and I was asking them if they were staying and the whole scene got quite chaotic for awhile. And then I was sent on some errand and there were paths of red brick lined by green bushes and there were puddles on the road and I was walking barefooted and I HONESTLY don't remember what it was all about. :P
Dreams aside, I really don't seem to be getting anymore rested despite sleeping so much. And I end up not studying as much as I wanted to... Gahhh. I want my A's!!! >.<
Terrified of 1st exam tomorrow and Human Rights paper on Wednesday. Not that I'm terribly prepared for the rest but at least they're less anxiety-inducing. Am understandably stressed but also feel rather down. Sigh. Today's QT, though, reminded me that when we feel inadequate and overwhelmed, God is near. Thank You, God :')
Be near me, Lord Jesus
I ask Thee to stay
Close by me forever
And love me, I pray
Bless all the dear children
In Thy tender care
And take us to Heaven
To live with Thee there