Pride Comes Before A Fall

This is what pride can do.

So much for asking "Is he spiritually mature enough for me?" Now I find myself asking "Am I spiritually mature enough for him?" And increasingly I find the answer is "No"...

One year (or thereabouts) of talking to him, and I make myself into a simpering fool. That's not even as long as our difference in ages. How could I have thought that I had what it takes? What could I have been thinking??

How wise You are, O Lord... and how wise You have made him.

Help me to be obedient to Your will, Lord. And teach me what to do now so that I will not drag him down in his spiritual walk.

And most of all Lord, help me not to be jealous of his hunger for You, of Your closeness to him. Oh, I know I shouldn't even be jealous in the first place, but You know how this flesh of ours creeps up and assails us from behind when we're not looking... Dear God, I need You to put Your hand on my heart and help me refocus on You and You alone. :S

But it goes against the way I am
To put my human nature down
And let the Spirit take control of all I do
This is what I am now.

I want to be this:
Oh God I'm so needy, needy
Oh God I'm in need of You

Lord, help me:
Fix my eyes on You Jesus
As I run this race
Help me fight this fight of faith

It's always a struggle, Lord, but I know I am not alone.

Joshua 1:5 "...As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you."

[Later edit: It comes to mind that perhaps one of the reasons I admire him so much is because he is like my Mum in terms of being a faithful lover of God, ever so faithful a servant of Him. And as I have often bemoaned before, I am not enough like my Mum. Oh well.]