Though I Try To Hide It, It's Clear

She's alot better than me.

Alot, alot, ALOT better.

Maybe it's time to make a graceful exit.

Try to say goodbye and I choke

It Hurts :'(

How could you?

When I've been asking and hinting so many times...

How could you?

Am I simply not good enough? If so, why couldn't you just tell me?

I need to stop being selfish
I need to get out of this pit of self-pity
I need to start praying regularly for you.

I need God's help to stop thinking the unthinkable.

I need to go cry myself to sleep now.

These past few days...

...there has been no other way to describe this feeling than "heartsick".

Logically, I know I'm making too much of it. It will pass, for one or other of various reasons.

Yet somehow, I am peaceless.

I must remember to cling to God.