moved.

k guys i have moved... my livejournal is here --> http://www.livejournal.com/users/jewelblue/

i'll still keep up this blog though for... i dunno, remembrance's sake? :) also to redirect pple i guess.

or to write stuff i don't want pple to comment on!! :P hardly happens, this, but you never know...

moving...?

i have been bugged to either get a tagboard, or move to livejournal. tagboards aren't free (oops tt sounds miserly hee but i just don't like the whole e-commerce thing) and livejournals are... well okay they're cool. but i dunno. kinda like the blog look better. *grinz*

but if i dun move then friends can't respond to my postings... hmm. :/

but if i move i lose all my old entries. *sob* i can cut-and-paste but tt ain't the same...

and i just like blog. i like my blog title.

maybe the real reason is that if i move, i have to set up a new acct all over again. and find my friends all over again. which is kinda like friendster all over again. which i don't really wanna repeat the experience of :P

BUT if i don't move... my friends can't reply. *sighhhh*

questions quoshtions. to move or not to move. it's 3am in the morning and i haven't done anything i wanted to and i should sleep pretty soon. but now i got the qn stuck in my head i can't sleep til i settle it. to move or not to move, to move or not to move...

sigh i think i'll move... but it will be with longing and regret. *looks back sadly at blog* sayang, sayang...

something beautiful

got this frm an event posting tt i'm sending around...

"While 'Sayang' is commonly equated to love, its implications go beyond just love. It has a variety of meanings that is rich beyond its common English translation. For example, tender affection, caresses, hugging and all the cuddly, nuzzly things between persons. The word also has other meanings, denoting a sad, wistful sense of pity, a passing of an opportunity - or an age."

yes. sayang sayang. sweet sad word. shall be happier later :)

please

please, God, take me now. i don't want to be a carnal creature, to suffer exhaustion and thirst and pain. i know i'm one of the least qualified people to say this but i don't know how else to put it. every word i say i hurt someone. every time i smile it darkens someone's day. God, make me an angel instead of a human... please...

claire dear i know i promised you i'd post sth for you here, but i just can't find it tonight... i'm sorry dear i'll post it soon enough ok? keep checking back...

for the person i'm talking to: you know who you are, and you know i don't know how to respond. please forgive me for being myself. if i had been someone else it'd be different, but you know who i am, i know who i am and God knows who i am. i can lie to myself and you but end of the day i can't escape His gaze. i'm sorry.

please forgive me... everybody. please.

if i didn't like children so much i'd cut out my womb

period.
BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD
PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN
owww.
*mutters under breath*

managed to finish 8pgs of the musical script. happy with that but must work harder. must do making of nation response paper now tho. not happy with that.

is too pained to continue. owwww