(Heh I originally posted this on LJ. Then I remembered my blogger was MEANT for these kinds of dreams and songs things :P)
Was contemplating not blogging about this, because I couldn't really make head or tail of it... But for some reason I feel the need to share.
Last night (or early this morning) I had a dream... it started out I have no idea how, but eventually I was talking to Ryan as we were walking around some huge mall and we agreed to buy some stuff back to CG to play the "Props" game we modified from Whose Line Is It Anyway (:P), but after we had checked out the other floors... and the floor we were on actually looked quite interesting with many things lying around (I only remember clothes, but they were brightly-coloured, and I'm surprised coz my dreams aren't often that colourful -- I think). Then we went on to the higher floor, and it was this like garden market, some weird hybrid between a wet market and a supermarket (e.g., the lettuce were all wrapped up individually like they usually are at the supermarket but this was applied to the chickens and the meat and every other type of vegetable too, and the floor was still wet :P).
I can't remember how much of the dream I spent in that place, and the only part I remember after that is about my family in a car, and some ang moh guy with us who seemed to be a family friend, but not a close one. This wasn't even the car my family usually drives, it was some dark green angular thing. Anyway, the part I remember was when we'd stopped at this petrol kiosk for some reason or other and were pumping gas and for some reason we needed to pump water as well. (Suddenly I remember playing with the water pump in an earlier part of the dream. Or was it the gas pump? Like trying to squirt stuff out of it. I can't remember but it sounds dangerous 0_o) But at first there was only a trickle of water, and then there was no water at all. And I remember praying, but it was the sort of prayer you say automatically while waiting for the water to come out, and later when I looked at the prayer it felt like I had taken God for granted and was just like, "God the water's coming soon right?". So no water came out, and the family friend was like "Hah! So much for praying" and I was distressed on that account, and was walking around anxiously praying in my heart that he would come to see God... and at this point was where my Mum was saying "You know earlier on you might have been spraying gas droplets all over us" (which was why I thought I had played with the pump earlier or something).
Well they went to pay (I remember Mum asking Dad if he had an international passport so he could pay) and I went back to the pump to look at the hose again because I couldn't believe it would run out of whatever-it-was-supposed-to-have. When I jiggled the thing two attendants (who looked like policemen, incidentally 0_o) hurried up and asked me what I was trying to do. I explained about the shortage and they said "Oh yes we're having renovations" (or something like that) and I went back to explain to my family and for some reason that relieved them. And then one of the attendant-cum-policeman reassured us, and then out of the blue said something about prayer support. So he prayed for us right there next to the car and my Mum was with my brother and my Dad was praying with his hands on the car and I was praying with my hands on my Dad's shoulders. I noticed out of the corner of my eye that this other Singaporean lady that we somehow knew (for some reason I felt she was connected with the car too, perhaps some insurance agent or car agent or something) was also praying, and I "felt" (in the dream) that she was a Christian so that was expected, but surprisingly the ang moh family friend (who had found another ang moh to chat with) put his hands on the car and prayed too. 0_o I have weird dreams.
Well, anyway immediately after we prayed, I had this feeling of trust and surety in God, as if just now my prayer was a sham, frivolous one but now it was sincere and from the heart and I KNEW God would answer it. But before I could find out whether the prayer worked (I'm not even sure now what the prayer was for! :S), I woke up. Heh cliffhanger! :P
Well when I was properly awake and everything I told myself that should serve as a reminder to pray with sincerity instead of just saying words. *Nods*
Still feel sleepy gahhh. But that is my fault entirely. My thoughts are too dangerous to be left unchecked nowadays >.< Must submit them to God. Read today's article just now about a car accident that killed a pedestrian and critically injured another, and was suddenly moved to pray for protection for a friend and for my family. Can't wait for today (and next Wednesday) to be over :S
I REALLY don't know what I'm going to do after graduation. :S
This song has been running in my head this morning. Guess I really need God's forgiving grace >.<
Purify My Heart
Teach me Your ways
O Lord, my God
And I will walk in Your truth
Give me a totally
Undivided heart
That I may fear Your name
Purify my heart
Cleanse me Lord, I pray
Remove from me
All that is
Standing in the way
Purify my heart
Cleanse me Lord, I pray
Remove from me
All that is
Standing in the way
Of Your love
For some reason, I've always had the impression that the last line of the verse was "That I may seek Your face"... Also always thought that the 3rd-5th lines of the chorus were "Remove from me all burdens standing in the way". Well, I suppose those are covered in "all that is" as well :)
Dear God, You know right now I'm too distracted to really mean this song... But as it plays on and on in my heart and head, help me to eventually mean it and give my full attention to You okay? :S
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