*Deep Breath*

I must calm down.

I must not do rash things.

Dear God, I don't know if You were trying to speak through my brother. (Lord, You know how I feel about my brother speaking to me. :P Help me not be biased Lord...) I don't know if he was highlighting to me something that I ought to change, or rein back, or is natural and oughtn't to be interfered with because it comes from You.

I don't know about tomorrow
I just live from day to day...
No expectations, remember?

Dear God, I'm very bad at following my own advice :'( Please help me, Lord.

Play hide and seek with the boy next door
Maybe I should stop.

What's the name of the game
Does it mean anything to you

It's not a game, it's never a game, I've never treated it as a game, but it's a game all the same... (That Rhymes :D) It's a game because it doesn't mean anything to everybody else. It's a game because I must always keep it hidden, all the time. It's a game because I never know, never will know (although this is debatable), don't want to know but want to know all at the same time. I want to know because I don't want it to be a game. I don't want to know because I'm so afraid of the deep hurt it brings. So uncertainty, or heartbreak? The Devil and the deep blue sea. (Actually, I rather like blue... and the sea [or more specifically the beach]. But I meant that phrase metaphorically :P)

And they called it Puppy Love
Just because we're in our teens
Well, I'm not in my teens anymore, and frankly that only confuses me further. Since I'm not in my teens anymore, does that mean I won't experience Puppy Love, only the Real Thing? Or does it have more to do with the quality, the maturity of the relationship itself?

And in that case, what does it say about me if somebody thinks I am experiencing "Puppy Love"?

Sorry... I'm being too self-centred again. "Me me me" I can start singing Sound Of Music at this rate :P

It's just that it looks like it's shaping up to be another "me versus the family" issues. And my track record on those have not been good recently.

Dear Lord, please speak to me. Because I need guidance pretty badly, and I think I need it quite soon before I pass the point of very-difficult-to-return.

At all times I will bless Him
His praise will be in my mouth
My soul makes its boast in the Lord...

God, You rock!!! You are greater than any issues or challenges I might face :)

There is no problem too big
God cannot solve it
There is no mountain too tall
He cannot move it
There is no storm too dark
God cannot calm it
There is no sorrow too deep
He cannot soothe it

If He carried the weight of the world
Upon His shoulder
I know my brother that He will carry you
If He carried the weight of the world
Upon His shoulder
I know my sister that He will carry you

He said "Come unto Me
All who are weary
And I will give you rest"(X2)